Just Keep Swimming.

You know what you gotta do when life gets you down?

Just keep swimming Just keep swimming

For some reason I keep repeating this to myself: Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming. Like the little cartoon fish that has something to prove, I guess. In the past few days it's felt like if I didn't "keep swimming" I would drown in grief. It's nipping at my heels, and if I stop for a second it's there ready to envelope me. I wasn't in the mood today...I was cried out. So, I decided we needed to get out and do something as a family. Something Betty-centered and fun.
So, we went to Schuett Farms in Mukwonago to visit the pumpkin patch.

It was nice to just spend some time with the kid and the hubby (participating in what my husband called good-ole' wholesome family fun). It was unseasonably warm today and I thought it was worthwhile to take advantage of the beautiful weather.

So...I keep swimming...walking...talking. One foot in front of the other hoping the grief doesn't continue to catch up with me. I know it's been less than a week, but I just don't want to miss her. I don't want to be without her. So I am, for now, comfortable in my self-imposed denial...healthy or not. I'm just exhausted and not ready to give in the grief just yet.

I didn't intend to continue to talk about it on here, a blog that was supposed to be reserved for my photo projects and client sneak peeks...but this is what is going on right now. And it helps to write it out so it's not caught in my head making me go crazy.

I miss her. Terribly.

I was at the pumpkin patch today smiling at my darling daughter and enjoying the lovely day, but the missing was still there. The hurt was still around us. I guess I can't rush it going away, but it's so incredibly unwelcome.

I caught some great pictures of The Peanut and I'm enjoying editing her pictures for awhile. Concentrating on her beautiful face and her adorable smile...gives me a bit of peace.

Walkin' in the dirt....woo hoo!
There is a lot of love in this picture

Pumpkins for The Peaunt

Daddy's Little Girl

Betty and I..... swimming.